Richard W. Brown

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My random thoughts on Jan, love, grief, life, and all things considered.

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A Year Without Jan is a Strange Year

April Showers Set the Stage for Jan's Birthday

Artwork graciously provided by Emi Sato.

It has been a year since the love of my life died. This morning, I got up and walked as if it was just another day.

But it is not just another day. It is one more day without Jan and one filled with questions.

Have I done enough to honor her?

Have I done enough to share her love?

Have I grown enough so that my grief is a minor part of me?

What would Jan do?

Although the questions are unanswerable today, I know one self-evident truth.

Our love will never die; it will grow stronger every day!

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New Page: Celebrate Jan Day Photos

April Showers Set the Stage for Jan's Birthday

Artwork graciously provided by Emi Sato.

Celebrate Jan Day on April 24, 2022, was a success. One hundred friends joined our family and volunteers from the Hanson Park Conservancy to celebrate her life. We dedicated and broke ground on a living memorial for her in the park.

Thanks to Neeru and Asish Patel, longtime friends, we have ninety-six photos of Celebrate Jan Day. If you use them, please credit them as the photographers. Click here to view video clips from Celebrate Jan Day.

If you share on social media with the links on this page, please use these hashtags.

  • #sharingjanslove
  • #janlilien
  • #loverneverdies

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Celebrate Jan Day Photos

Over One Hundred Celebrate Jan’s Life We are working with Hanson Park and Carolle Huber Landscape Architecture to develop a creative reimagination of the Hanson Park Triangle. Click here for a PDF of the design. These ninety-six photos are courtesy of Neeru and Asish Patel. If you use them, please credit them as photographers. Click here […]
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Jan’s Birthday Playlist is Joyful

April Showers Set the Stage for Jan's Birthday

Artwork graciously provided by Emi Sato.

Jan’s Birthday Playlist was one she curated for her sixtieth birthday. The music was perfect for that birthday and every day. We played this music in Hanson Park on Celebrate Jan Day, and I share it with anyone who loves Jan and music. Jan listened to each song twice before selecting it for this playlist. She did not include many because they needed to meet her criteria.

Jan wanted the music to reflect her passion for life and her love for her family.

 

Enjoy and share Jan’s love.

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Celebrate Jan Day

On Sunday, April 24, 2022, in Hanson Park in Cranford, NJ, one hundred friends joined our family and volunteers from the Hanson Park Conservancy to Celebrate Jan's life as we dedicated and broke ground on a living memorial for her in the park.
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Jan and the Righteous Thirty-Six

Jan Lilien

Artwork graciously provided by Emi Sato.

At Celebrate Jan Day, Rabbi Dr. Renee Edelman spoke about the thirty-six righteous people. Jan, according to the Rabbi, was one of the thirty-six.

“Jan was one of those who did the most to help other people,” said Rabbi Renee. She highlighted Jan’s spark and smiles that invited people to join in conversations.

“Her soul will always be with those who knew her and were loved by Jan,” said Rabbi Renee.

I will forever be grateful to Rabbi Renee for her love, friendship, and spiritual guidance.

The Rabbi’s video is one of twelve video clips from Celebrate Jan Day.

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New Page: Videos from Celebrate Jan Day!

Thanks to Cranford’s TV35, a local access television channel, the event was live-streamed and can now be viewed on YouTube. We now have videos of the individual presentations. Enjoy, and please share!

This video is Cynthia Manno singing “Wind Beneath my Wings” by Bette Midler at Celebrate Jan Day.

Celebrate Jan Day on April 24, 2022, was a success. One hundred friends joined our family and volunteers from the Hanson Park Conservancy to celebrate her life as we dedicated and broke ground on a living memorial for her in the park.

If you share on social media with the links on this page, please use these hashtags.

  • #sharingjanslove
  • #janlilien
  • #loverneverdies

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When you buy a book or product using a link on this page, I receive a commission. Thank you for supporting Sharing Jan’s Love blog.

Celebrate Jan Day Videos

Over One Hundred Celebrate Jan’s Life We are working with Hanson Park and Carolle Huber Landscape Architecture to develop a creative reimagination of the Hanson Park Triangle. Click here for a PDF of the design. Thanks to Cranford’s TV35, a local access television channel, the event was live-streamed and can now be viewed on YouTube. […]
Hanson Park Display Carolle Huber

Breaking Ground for Jan’s Memorial Garden

April Showers Set the Stage for Jan's Birthday

Artwork graciously provided by Emi Sato.

It has been only three days since we broke ground on the Jan Lilien Memorial Triangle Garden at Hanson Park. The many friends who joined us for the day helped us with love and support.

Over the next few months, we will provide updates on the progress of the work on the garden.

Hanson Park Conservancy‘s Jan Lilien Education Fund sponsors events and programs on sustainability and environmental awareness.

On Thursday, May 12, 2022 – at 7 pm at the Community Center, speaker Virginia Lamb will discuss soil health and composting as a tool for climate mitigation.


The Jan Lilien Education Fund sponsors ongoing sustainability and environmental awareness programs. Gifts made this month; I will match dollar-for-dollar. All donations are tax-deductible.

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St. John the Evangelist Lutheran Church

Fr. John Heinemeier, Rest in Peace

John HeineneierIn several of my longer posts and some streams, I refer to Fr. John and my time working out of St. John the Evangelist Lutheran Church in East Williamsburg, Brooklyn.

I worked as VISTA Volunteer, a formative time in my life, and Fr. John was my work supervisor.

He co-officiated our marriage and provided me with both professional and personal guidance.

A few days ago, he passed away. It was less than a year after Jan’s death.

Fr. John lived a life of meaning and impact as Jan did. My life is but a shadow compared to their lives.

Read Pastor Heinemeier’s memoir.


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Finding Life’s Meaning in Williamsburg

Fifty years ago, I stood on the northwest corner of Maujer Street and Graham Avenue with five new friends. We had taken a  cab from NYC and were unsure which way to the rectory. I suggested we go east on Maujer Street and thus began a journey to find meaning and purpose in my life. […]

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The Listeners

Read: June 2025

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The Listeners: A Novel

by Maggie Stiefvater

Maggie Stiefvater‘s latest historical fiction, The Listeners, is now available in stores today, and it’s an enthralling read that you won’t want to put down. Set against the backdrop of January 1942, the luxurious Avallon Hotel & Spa stands as a beacon of elegance amid the rugged beauty of West Virginia, its refreshing mountain waters promising to wash away the worries of high society until it is ordered to house Axis diplomats. Stiefvater‘s meticulous research and attention to historical detail bring this era to life in a way that will captivate any history buff.

At the heart of this gripping tale is June Porter Hudson, a local girl who has risen to the role of general manager. With remarkable skill, she navigated the early challenges of wartime operations, but nothing could prepare her for the complexities of hosting diplomats from the Axis powers. As tensions mount and secrets unfold, June must confront her fears and the profound changes in history, all while striving to uphold the dignity of the Avallon. Dive into this captivating story and feel the weight of the changing tides of history.

In the opulent world of the Avallon Hotel, the Gilfoyle family reigns supreme, their aristocratic lineage a testament to old-world charm and privilege. But this sanctuary of luxury is thrown into turmoil when the family heir strikes a clandestine deal with the State Department, bringing a motley crew of captured Axis diplomats into their midst. June, the hotel’s resourceful manager, finds herself in an impossible position, tasked with persuading her dedicated staff, many of whom have loved ones fighting on the front lines, to serve these enemy guests with charming smiles.

As tensions simmer beneath the surface, FBI Agent Tucker Minnick lurks in the shadows, his coal tattoo serving as a reminder of his rugged Appalachian roots. He presses his ear against the hotel’s walls, eavesdropping on the diplomats’ whispered secrets. Yet, his past clings to him like a specter, revealing that the very same balancing act that keeps June poised could lead to perilous consequences. Beneath the hotel lies Sweetwater—its power to heal intertwined with its potential to destroy.

June is known for her ability to charm any guest, but these diplomats challenge her mastery. They’ve waged a silent war at her doorstep, forcing her to confront the reality that clashing loyalties threaten to shatter Avallon’s polished exterior. As June navigates this treacherous terrain, she must weigh the actual cost of luxury and decide what she’s willing to sacrifice in a time of conflict.


Maggie Stiefvater is the New York Times bestselling author of the Shiver trilogy, The Raven Cycle, and The Scorpio Races, among dozens of other YA fantasy novels. Her books have sold over five million copies worldwide. She lives in the Shenandoah Valley of Virginia with her husband and their two children.



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The Antidote

Read: October 2025

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The Antidote: A Novel

by Karen Russell

Karen Russell‘s The Antidote, a finalist in the fiction category for the 2025 National Book Award, serves as a profound reckoning with a nation’s tendency to forget. It addresses the settler amnesia and deliberate omissions that have been passed down through generations, revealing not only horrors but also shimmering possibilities. The Antidote resonates with urgent warnings about our current climate emergency, prompting readers to reflect on what might have been and what is still possible.

The Antidote opens on Black Sunday, as a historic dust storm ravages the fictional town of Uz, Nebraska. But Uz is already collapsing—not just under the weight of the Great Depression and the Dust Bowl drought but beneath its own violent histories.

The Antidote follows a “Prairie Witch,” whose body serves as a bank vault for peoples’ memories and secrets; a Polish wheat farmer who learns how quickly a hoarded blessing can become a curse; his orphan niece, a basketball star and witch’s apprentice in furious flight from her grief; a voluble scarecrow; and a New Deal photographer whose time-traveling camera threatens to reveal both the town’s secrets and its fate.


Karen Russell is the author of six fiction books, including the New York Times bestsellers Swamplandia! and Vampires in the Lemon Grove. She is a MacArthur Fellow, a Guggenheim Fellow, and a Pulitzer Prize finalist.

She has received two National Magazine Awards for Fiction, the Shirley Jackson Award, the 2023 Bottari Lattes Grinzane Prize, and the 2024 Mary McCarthy Prize, and was selected for the National Book Foundation’s 5 Under 35 award and The New Yorker’s 20 Under 40 list (she is now decisively over forty).

She serves on the board of Street Books, a mobile library for people living outdoors. Born and raised in Miami, Florida, she lives in Portland, Oregon, with her husband, son, and daughter.



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Seascraper

Read: November 2025

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Seascraper: A Novel

by Benjamin Wood

Haunting, timeless, and stunningly atmospheric, Seascraper by Benjamin Wood explores the story of a young man whose quiet existence is dramatically altered in just one day. His circumstances confine him, yet he yearns for a sense of fulfillment that extends far beyond the world he knows. The novel has been longlisted for the 2025 Booker Prize.

Twenty-year-old Thomas Flett lives a slow, deliberate life with his mother in Longferry, Northern England, working his grandpa’s trade as a shanker. He rises early to take his horse and cart to the drizzly shore to scrape for shrimp, and spends the afternoon selling his wares, trying to wash away the salt and sea-scum, pining for his neighbor, Joan Wyeth, and playing songs on his guitar. At heart, he is a folk musician, but this remains a private dream.

Then a mysterious American arrives in town and enlists Thomas’s help in finding a perfect location for his next movie. Though skeptical at first, Thomas learns to trust the stranger, Edgar, and, shaken from the drudgery of his days by the promise of Hollywood glamour, begins to see a different future for himself. But how much of what Edgar claims is true, and how far can his inspiration carry Thomas?


Benjamin Wood was born in 1981 and grew up in Merseyside. Seascraper is his fifth novel. His previous works were shortlisted for the Costa First Novel Award, the Commonwealth Book Prize, the Sunday Times Young Writer of the Year Award, the RSL Encore Award, the CWA Gold Dagger Award, and the European Union Prize for Literature. In 2014, he won France’s Prix du Roman Fnac.

He is a senior lecturer in creative writing at King’s College, London, and lives in Surrey with his wife and sons.



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The Bee Sting: A Novel

Read: December 2023

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The Bee Sting: A Novel

by Paul Murray

I began reading “The Bee Sting: A Novel” by Paul Murray today, the seventy-fifth book I have read this year, one more than last year. This exuberantly entertaining novel is a tour de force that portrays post-crash Ireland, a tragicomic family saga, and a dazzling story about the struggle to be good at the end of the world.

The Barnes family is in trouble, with Dickie’s once-lucrative car business going under. However, Dickie is spending his days in the woods, building an apocalypse-proof bunker with a renegade handyperson. His wife, Imelda, sells off her jewelry on eBay while trying to avoid the attention of fast-talking cattle farmer Big Mike. Meanwhile, their teenage daughter, Cass, formerly top of her class, seems determined to binge drink through her final exams. As for twelve-year-old PJ, he’s on the brink of running away.

If you were to change this story, how far back would you have to go? To the infamous bee sting that ruined Imelda’s wedding day? To the car crash one year before Cass was born? Or back to Dickie at ten years old, standing in the summer garden with his father, learning how to be a real man?


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Good and Evil and Other Stories

Read: September 2025

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Good and Evil and Other Stories

by Samanta Schweblin

Good and Evil and Other Stories” by Samanta Schweblin, translated by Megan McDowell, explores characters who find themselves at a point of no return, captivated by the impending tragedy surrounding them. Vulnerable and deeply human, they become ensnared in moments when the uncanny intrudes upon their lives. Some characters transform, others find themselves isolated, and many oscillate between feelings of guilt and tenderness. All are driven by uncertainty.

Schweblin’s prose employs tension and truth to create a literary universe where the monsters of everyday life come so close that we can almost feel their breath. Her writing evokes both awe and discomfort, placing readers in a state of alarm while transporting them to a world that is both recognizable and strange.


Samanta Schweblin won the 2022 National Book Award for Translated Literature for her story collection Seven Empty Houses. Her debut novel, Fever Dream, was shortlisted for the International Booker Prize, while her book, Little Eyes, and her story collection, Mouthful of Birds, have both been longlisted for the same prize. Her books have been translated into over forty languages, and her stories have appeared in prestigious English publications, including The New Yorker, The Paris Review, Granta, and Harper’s Magazine. Originally from Buenos Aires, Schweblin currently lives in Berlin.

Megan McDowell is the recipient of a 2020 Award in Literature from the American Academy of Arts and Letters and has been short- or longlisted four times for the International Booker Prize. She resides in Santiago, Chile.



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The Emperor of Gladness

Read: May 2025

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The Emperor of Gladness

by Ocean Vuong

In “The Emperor of Gladness,” Ocean Vuong explores the interconnected themes of history, memory, and time, revealing how love, labor, and loneliness are the foundation of American life. At its core, the narrative presents a courageous epic that examines what it means to live on the margins of society and confront the wounds that affect our shared humanity. It highlights the lengths we are willing to go to grasp one of life’s most fleeting gifts: a second chance.

One late summer evening in the post-industrial town of East Gladness, Connecticut, nineteen-year-old Hai stands on the edge of a bridge in pelting rain, ready to jump, when he hears someone shout across the river. The voice belongs to Grazina, an elderly widow succumbing to dementia, who convinces him to take another path. Bereft and out of options, he quickly becomes her caretaker. Over the year, the unlikely pair develops a life-altering bond, one built on empathy, spiritual reckoning, and heartbreak, with the power to transform Hai’s relationship with himself, his family, and a community on the brink.

Hallmarks of Ocean Vuong‘s writing—formal innovation, syntactic dexterity, and the ability to twin grit with grace through tenderness—are on full display in this story.


Ocean Vuong is the author of the critically acclaimed poetry collections Night Sky with Exit Wounds and Time Is a Mother, as well as the New York Times bestselling novel On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous. A recipient of the MacArthur Fellowship and the American Book Award, he once worked as a fast-food server, which inspired The Emperor of Gladness. Born in Saigon, Vietnam, he currently splits his time between Northampton, Massachusetts, and New York City.



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