True Love Never Dies!

Estimated reading time: 10 minutes, 52 seconds

Hello, How Are You?

“The photographer wanted me to ask you if you wanted to take photos at each table,” Marie asked me as I was finishing dinner.”Yes, I can do that in about five minutes. Would it be better in front of the organizational banner?” After the interview, I enjoyed sitting with family and key colleagues for a few moments but knew I had no choice but to say yes. 

“Richard, it is better table by table with this many people. I know the staff wants a group photo with you.

I nodded affirmatively, turned to those at my table, and suggested we could do this table first. 

As long as we can also get photos with you in front of the banner,” said Gary, a long-term friend and the person who had interviewed and hired me for my initial position.  

If you want two photos with me, you are more desperate than I thought,” I laughed.

As we walked to the second table, I asked Marie how many tables we had for the event.

“Thirty-two or thirty-three,” she replied. 

I put on my best face and followed her around the banquet hall. 

At every table, I received positive feedback.

“Congratulations, great speech.”

So sorry your marriage ended, but you have so much to feel good about tonight.

When we arrived at the last table, I greeted them the same way I had all of the other tables, with grace and humor.

I stood at the back of the table so the photographer would have a blank wall as the background.

Placing my hands on the back of the chair in the middle of the table, I heard a familiar voice. 

Could it be Jan? If it is Jan, why is she here? It has been more than four decades since I forced her to leave me.

Deciding it was not her, I asked the photographer,” Are you ready for us to smile?

Once my eyes adjusted to the flash from the camera, I did what I had done at all of the other tables, thanking them for attending.

The person I had been standing behind was the last person I thanked. As I turned to greet her, I was positive that despite more than four decades, it was Jan.


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The White Hot” by Quiara Alegría Hudes is a letter from a mother to her daughter, reflecting on a moment of abandonment that stretches from ten days to ten years. It offers an explanation rather than an apology. Hudes tells April’s story—spiritual and sensual, fierce and humorous—using delicate lyricism and tough love. Through this narrative, Hudes transforms April’s struggle for self-discovery into an unforgettable short epic.

April is a young mother raising her daughter in a multigenerational home filled with unspoken secrets and loud arguments. Her only refuge is the locked bathroom, where she plugs her ears into an ambient soundscape and repeats a mantra: “dead inside.” This continues until one day, as she feels herself spiraling toward the volcanic rage she calls “the white hot,” an inner voice tells her to simply walk away.

She goes to a bus station and asks for a one-way ticket to the furthest destination. This ticket takes her from her Philadelphia home to the threshold of a wilderness, marking the start of a nameless quest—an accidental journey that awakens her, nearly kills her, and leads her to an impossible choice.

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Long Bright River by Liz Moore was a 2020 NPR Books We Love Selection. It’s a contemporary novel about the opioid epidemic, it’s a novel about sisters and families, it’s a book about the police and how they fall short of the communities they serve, and it’s a well-plotted crime novel. Its main story revolves around Mickey, a patrol officer raising a young son in a working-class neighborhood in Northeast Philadelphia, and her missing sister, who’s addicted to drugs. Both women are the children of addicts, raised by a strict grandmother.

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Adelaide Henry carries an enormous steamer trunk with her wherever she goes. It’s locked at all times. Because when the trunk is opened, people around her start to disappear…

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Today, I began reading When We Cease to Understand the World by Benjamín Labatut, translated by Adrian Nathan West. This book, listed on The New York Times 100 Best Books of the 21st Century, promises to be thought-provoking as it delves into the intricate connections between scientific and mathematical discovery, madness, and destruction.

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