Richard W. Brown October 17, 2021
Jan and Richard

Falling Down

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Yesterday, I got my COVID Booster shot; it was only a sore arm with no severe side effects. At bedtime, I was exhausted. Once in bed, it dawned on me that my slippers were not by the bed. Getting up to find them, I slipped and fell. No disorientation was broken, only scrapes and bruises. The fall damaged my pride. The aches and pain will heal, but will my pride and self-confidence heal?

Hopefully, it is at least a half-decade before they start talking about moving me to assisted dying.

Jan’s spirit was with me and showered me with love. All I have ever needed was her love.

Love never dies!

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